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“why do we even need ao3/ why won’t they censor content i don’t like/ what’s that money going towards”
it’s going towards not arbitrarily deleting all your fucking blogs overnight because yahoo had a shareholders meeting, that’s what the fuck it’s going towards. if you don’t own it, they can yank the cord whenever they feel like it, for whatever reason, using whatever wobbly catch-all algorithm they want, and that is exactly what the fuck we’ve been telling you. “wellll i’m not a porn blog, it’s not going to affect me,” oh worm?? you sure?? this website is suddenly gonna be capable of censoring posted content with surgical precision? give ao3 ten bucks immediately and get real
a concept: future jake and amy having a kid BUT amy goes into labour on halloween and jake has to figure out if amy is cheating him out of the heist or if he’s actually about to have a kid
bold of you to assume she didnt plan to get pregnant exactly 9 months before halloween so that its actually both
bold of you to assume it wasnt jake who planned to get her pregnant exactly 9 months before so she’d be thrown off by contractions
bold of all of us to assume Holt didn’t pick an exact date to compliment them both so they’d have validation horniness so that jake AND amy were in disadvantage during the heist
Holt: your heteronormative lifestyle choices will bring about your demise
“neil are tomatoes a fruit or a vegetable” “a fruit” “WHY” “because I don’t like vegetables but I like tomatoes”
aaron is speechless for the next hour bc he has to process that he and neil agree on tomato characterization (though aaron’s reasoning is biology-based)
triple-knots his shoelaces. can’t have an untied lace tripping you when you’re running for your life : )
okay so idk how many of y’all remember, but Propel water used to be a big thing (or maybe that was just me) but anyway neil is a SUPPORTER
it’s not that sweet but it is a bit of flavor
Electrolytes™
takes an entire sixpack of propel bottles for himself to every game
when he starts drinking socially he tries to use Propel as a mixer and andrew’s like……….the fuck
when he graduates, the currently-at-PSU foxes give him artsy framed photos of the Foxhole Court as a graduation/bye-captain gift. neil doesn’t feel moved in to an apartment until they’re hung up
a random list of things you might not remember if you weren’t there while Yuuri on ice was just coming out because I was in a mood:
-when the trailer/preview dropped and everyone was like “uuuh looks gay” and then the actual first episode came out and we were like. Yep. Called it
-when someone finally translated Stammi Vicino and everyone got really excited because it was explicitly mlm
-for about the first three weeks everyone was like “there is no way this show can get any gayer” and then it regularly did so we all just gave up
-when people caught on the fact that the opening changed details with every new episode and got really excited, and that one person who made side by side comparisons of all openings every week
-that very short period of time when we genuinely couldn’t tell if Yurio was meant to be an antagonist or not
-I’m pretty sure Evgenia Medvedeva was there from the start and there was just this. Surreal feeling that along with all of us trash goblins one of the rising stars of the figure skating world was also very emotional over these anime boys
-on that note, those actual figure skating fans who were delivering a ton of meta over what actual skaters the characters were based on
-when everyone lost it after ep3 came out and we were all like! did Victor just tell Yuuri he loves him through food metaphors??
-just. “I’m a pork cutlet bowl fatale that enthralls men”. that was good shit
-the “Victor is going to leave Yuuri and break his heart!” discourse that came with that episode
-and then we all kinda calmed down with episode four and I remember everyone crying because,,,, they took one whole episode just for character development,,,,, we stan one (1) good anime
-the smol japanese skater that got really excited about meeting Yuuri and we were all like “mood”
-also when Christophe was introduced and everyone was just like, WHAT THE FUCK
-when ep6 came out with the preview for ep7 and everyone was like. THEY DIDN’T SHOW ANYTHING TOO GAY IN THE PREVIEW WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??? SHOULD WE WORRY???? (no literally I just found some screenshots of a text I sent to a friend of mine that says “the preview doesn’t look gay enough and I don’t trust that”)
-when ep. 7 dropped and everyone and their mother lost their shit and YOI trended for a whole week on tumblr and people were joining the fandom in HORDES which to this day is probably still the most surreal fandom experience I’ve ever had
-idk if this was a universal thing but the italian subfandom had all those michele crispino memes about wine
-also when Sara Crispino got introduced and the subtitles said Sala and everyone was crying because it was just really bad
-everyone shouting to know Victor’s backstory
-that whole week of being 100% convinced Makkachin would die, fun times
-when episode? 10 I think? came out and it was revealed that Yuuri had seduced Victor at the afterparty the previous year and everyone was LOSING IT
– that whole episode just killed everyone tbh
-also Otabek showed up and people were thirsting reaaal hard
-the Otayuri discourse which I’m assuming continues to this day
-HAMSTER META
-“I will give you something gold and shiny for your birthday” and everyone being like. Are they tricking us into thinking it’s a medal when it’s, in fact, a wedding ring, or are they tricking us into thinking it’s a wedding ring when it is, in fact, a medal?
-everyone crying after episode 11 and all the meta on what was gonna happen. I think the general opinion was that Yuuri would win gold and then he and Victor would retire together lmao
-also when it got strongly implied that Christophe had a boyfriend and people got really emotional, that was cute
-I just remember everyone dying over the final episode, with the freaking Stammi Vicino duet, tbh
-overall it was just a freaking wild experience and two years later I’m still so glad I was there for that
op you forgot the time when everyone thought viktor was dying or going to die
Neil and Andrew are boyfriends who are always proud of each other for literally everything.
-one of the best memories Andrew has is the first time Neil walked into a room and instead of looking for all the exits in the room and potential threats, he just looked at Andrew
-Neil still remembers the feeling in his chest the first time Andrew spooned with while they slept, both of their backs to the room.
-Andrew remembers Neil truly allow himself to laugh in pure joy for the first time in probably his whole life, he uses that memory to help calm him down when he’s missing him
-The first time Andrew lets someone other than Neil touch him (its a hand on the shoulder from Nicky) Neil’s smile lit up the room for the next three days
-the first time Neil went swimming with the foxes and wasn’t once self conscious about his scars Andrew kissed him so hard that night, trying to show just how proud he was of his boy
-the first time Andrew smiled properly was the day Neil thought he finally knew what heaven looked like.
They have So many memories together far more than just these six, Andrew’s memory keeping them all safe forever and Neil’s memory holding on to everything to do with Andrew because Andrew is even more of his world than Exy (Kevin finds this to be blasphemy). Every time one of them improves and becomes healthier the other feels a content-ness down to their bones. Each of them getting softer with each other every day.
Nothing but My Aching Soul 